Went to the job center – something I have to do - I know it’s not giving much work, at least all the unemployed hold the few at work, with meeting and paperwork, telling the same old story – we have no work for you – have you tried all the places? – oh yeah I write at least twice a week application and send them to all corners of the world – most answers blow in the wind telling me, how many wrote an application, and that another got the job anyway. Selling me is the issue they say – well I’m not good at that, never been – I’m not sure it’s only me that have this problem – selling yourself is a global issue to be heard, seen and have success attending reality shows, doing things online for all to see. Playing a role on Robinson Island, at Paradise Hotel or whatever – actually I think life is too short for reality shows – it’s hard to defy a valid set of life value (codex) and only a few can say they found it – I wonder. Last night I was looking at YouTube and found that old folksinger friends more or less missing, and I know a few of them is dead between then and now. So in this downhill of emotion Kate & Anna McGarrigle sang Petite Annonce and I found out that Kate has passed away since last I checked. All this – advertising , selling yourself , passed friends makes you wonder – where do I stand? – literally, do I live as I should or has there been times where another choice could have made it different? – to make that a simple answer: yes. But I didn’t make the choice. We are, what we are, and that’s it. Just make the best of it – and stick to it, at least for those close by, it would mean everything. I.e. my soul mate made her choice for a reason, not for what I might have been, if…, or might become, but for what I was. Petite annonce: Valentine day No other way roll the dice once more for life |